Well what a misrable year it has been. Apart from it being so emotionally draining with everything that has gone on with my mum TAFE has failed me i feel half of my friends have failed me or i have failed them and it just seems to be getting worse. Ill health seems to be running on the female side of my family. Ifeel this year i have wasted it because i am no close to where ever it is i am meant to be. My new boss that comes in treats me like a two year old fires everyone that knows something and brings in all her friends from her old work what a joke who need expereince these days you just need to know someone.
I'm trying to find the positives apart from the awesome new friends i have made there isn't really anything that great. I've lost friends and i miss alot of old friends that i don't get too see anymore. I'm getting so sick of being the strong one and staying positive through all this misery that i have been going through but i guess if i fall into the depression trap again well thats not somewhere i want to go so i'm trying to remain positive but damn some days its just to hard. I'd just like one easy day thats all where no thoughts were to creep into my mind and i could just be a marshmellow having the best time ever. well thats my rant done.

Hope you all had a wonderful chrissy and that you have an awesome new years planned.